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The Awakening - Part Three
Identity passes through awareness like weather through seamless, unbroken sky. It never owns the space it moves through. It’s simply making temporary use of what is always free and available. 一We All Share the Same Sky
Dec 16, 20251 min read


Makōtō - Honesty as a Meditation Practice
誠 (Makoto) carries a ruthless simplicity. Sincerity. Undividedness. No daylight between what is seen and how one lives. Humans struggle with it not because it is complex, but because it leaves nowhere to hide. Without honesty, nothing coheres. Speech fractures from action. Intention drifts from impact. Identity becomes theater. Zuigan’s call points straight at this... “Master.” “Yes.” “Are you awake?” “Yes. Yes.” “Do not be deceived by the other.” “I will not.” The so-called
Dec 13, 20251 min read


Opening the Hand of Attention
The most direct way I've found to stop thoughts from tailgating our life from behind is to open the hand of Attention. When Attention opens, thinking mind loses its outsized influence over us. We stop being pushed. We get to actually "Be here now." 一We Are the Practice Itself
Dec 9, 20251 min read


We Are Not Our Thoughts
What is the Matrix? It’s the system of thought that keeps authoring the identity you take to be so-called “you.”And in truth… literally, not figuratively — it’s likely that identity may not exist at all. The invitation of Zen… of Recovery from anxiety and the under developed relationship with so-called self? Don’t hand yourself over as a meat puppet for the mind to manipulate… to entertain itself through the character it calls “you.” Don’t you see it when you’re talking to yo
Dec 4, 20251 min read


The Eye Cannot See the Eye
The eye cannot see the eye... because the eye is what seeing comes through. In the same way, Awareness cannot observe itself as an object. It is the Openness through which experience flows. Thoughts, thinking, and narratives appear within the field of Awareness like clouds, birds, or flashes of lightning in the sky. They come and go without direct invitation. But they never tear the sky. They occur to the ‘Observer,’ but aren’t the observer itself. Attention... the lens of Aw
Nov 21, 20252 min read


Where Is Reality?
Reality does not wait for us in thought. It isn't found in what we remember, fear, or hope for. The instant attention captured by mind thinking about the present, attempting to analyze… Categorize… and place it on a mental bookshelf, it's already gone... and in Nowness we are a phantom wandering through mind's dream. Reality is the silent pulse before the thinking mind arrives... before it names, divides, or reaches to grab. Zazen is this unspoken space of the present mome
Oct 13, 20251 min read


Recovery as Ethical Awakening - When Healing Reveals Character
In my experience there’s an important truth hiding in plain sight inside of recovery communities: the path out of addiction at its core...
Sep 21, 20253 min read


Reconnection
Are we seeing what’s actually here? Or are we seeing what aspects of our unhealed self want us to see? Are we encountering life? Or a...
Jul 24, 20251 min read


What makes me tick?
Growing up the way I did, I developed a deep allergy to harshness-cruelty, what some might simply call meanness. It’s not just about...
Apr 26, 20252 min read


Understanding Anxiety as the Root of Addictive Behavior: A New Perspective on Step One from ‘Active Addiction’
Overview We could gain a deeper, perhaps ‘better’ understanding of addiction and recovery by examining Step One through the lens of...
Jan 19, 20254 min read


Continuing Reflections on Addiction as Amplified Anxiety
Addiction can be understood as a dis-ease rooted in amplified anxiety... an intense form of self-obsession that distorts perception and...
Dec 29, 20242 min read


Equations of Amplified Anxiety
S = A’ × (UC × C² + E) The equation S = A’ × (UC × C² + E) reflects how Amplified Anxiety (A’), combined and multiplied by Unhealthy...
Dec 29, 20242 min read


The E=MC² of Anxiety - Addiction as a False Solution and Suffering
Lately, I've been reflecting on the intricate interplay of anxiety, addiction, and suffering. These forces seem to form their own...
Dec 27, 20245 min read


Re-experiencing Joshu's Mu
A person asked Seiho in all seriousness... do even the reckless... those who cause and/or have caused harm... such as addicts and...
Dec 20, 20243 min read


Reflections on Anxiety, Panic, and Emotional Dysregulation
Panic, anxiety and emotional dysregulaton isn't a response--it's a reaction, reflexive, 'unmindful' and shallow, narrowing and limiting...
Dec 18, 20243 min read


THE NUANCES OF ATTENTION, MINDFULNESS, AND AWARENESS IN MEDITATION PRACTICE
In Zen training and practice--and in Buddhism more broadly--there is a tendency to conflate terms that appear, or that many have been...
Nov 28, 20245 min read


How Long Does It Take to Awaken?
How long? Days? Weeks? Months? Years? Decades? How many moments will pass before you as YOU--the one reading these words right...
Nov 16, 20243 min read


Not Collaborating with Suffering
'Real’ sponsorship, mentorship, friendship, or any interpersonal relationship—truly healthy, non-toxic, and genuine—requires sincere,...
Oct 31, 20242 min read


Perspective as Perspective
見方 (mikata), or “way of seeing,” invites a deep introspection and experiencing into how we perceive REALITY as REALITY, not just as a...
Oct 16, 20242 min read


Zazen's True Nature
In my direct experience, Zazen is not an isolated practice. It's not confined to a set beginning, middle, and end... a beginning and...
Oct 7, 20242 min read
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