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What makes me tick?
Growing up the way I did, I developed a deep allergy to harshness-cruelty, what some might simply call meanness. It’s not just about...
Apr 262 min read


Understanding Anxiety as the Root of Addictive Behavior: A New Perspective on Step One from ‘Active Addiction’
Overview We could gain a deeper, perhaps ‘better’ understanding of addiction and recovery by examining Step One through the lens of...
Jan 194 min read


Continuing Reflections on Addiction as Amplified Anxiety
Addiction can be understood as a dis-ease rooted in amplified anxiety... an intense form of self-obsession that distorts perception and...
Dec 29, 20242 min read


Equations of Amplified Anxiety
S = A’ × (UC × C² + E) The equation S = A’ × (UC × C² + E) reflects how Amplified Anxiety (A’), combined and multiplied by Unhealthy...
Dec 29, 20242 min read


The E=MC² of Anxiety - Addiction as a False Solution and Suffering
Lately, I've been reflecting on the intricate interplay of anxiety, addiction, and suffering. These forces seem to form their own...
Dec 27, 20245 min read


Re-experiencing Joshu's Mu
A person asked Seiho in all seriousness... do even the reckless... those who cause and/or have caused harm... such as addicts and...
Dec 20, 20243 min read


Reflections on Anxiety, Panic, and Emotional Dysregulation
Panic, anxiety and emotional dysregulaton isn't a response--it's a reaction, reflexive, 'unmindful' and shallow, narrowing and limiting...
Dec 18, 20243 min read


THE NUANCES OF ATTENTION, MINDFULNESS, AND AWARENESS IN MEDITATION PRACTICE
In Zen training and practice--and in Buddhism more broadly--there is a tendency to conflate terms that appear, or that many have been...
Nov 28, 20245 min read


How Long Does It Take to Awaken?
How long? Days? Weeks? Months? Years? Decades? How many moments will pass before you as YOU--the one reading these words right...
Nov 16, 20243 min read


Not Collaborating with Suffering
'Real’ sponsorship, mentorship, friendship, or any interpersonal relationship—truly healthy, non-toxic, and genuine—requires sincere,...
Oct 31, 20242 min read


Perspective as Perspective
見方 (mikata), or “way of seeing,” invites a deep introspection and experiencing into how we perceive REALITY as REALITY, not just as a...
Oct 16, 20242 min read


Zazen's True Nature
In my direct experience, Zazen is not an isolated practice. It's not confined to a set beginning, middle, and end... a beginning and...
Oct 7, 20242 min read


Natural Talent vs. Hard Work in Acquiring a Skill
When it comes to meditation, specifically the practice of Zazen, I had no natural talent or skill for it. In fact, in my 34 years of Zen...
Sep 16, 20242 min read


ROBES OF PERCEPTION
There was an occasion when I was invited to give a teaching at a Buddhist temple, focused on the topic of 'inclusion versus exclusion.'...
Sep 11, 20242 min read


Feeling My Feelings… or Were They Really Mind’s Thoughts? Inquiring Attention Want’s to Know!
There was a time when my attention would lock onto and agree with the thought, “I need to feel my feelings.” As my meditation practice...
Aug 28, 20242 min read


Step 8: Mending, Amending, and Willingness | One Addicts Experience
In my continuous process of uncovering and healing from the toxic relationship with addiction mind... negativity mind, Step 8 invites...
Aug 9, 20242 min read


What I've Learned About Relationships: Auditioning vs. Authenticity
One of the greatest challenges I've noticed in relationships is that many people enter them with an "audition" mentality. They approach...
Aug 6, 20242 min read


Zen Is Not About Training Mind
Using the mind to control or manage mind itself is a commitment to being caught in an endless loop of suffering. It's like attempting to...
Jul 18, 20241 min read


Controlling the Uncontrollable
What happens to us when we try to control the uncontrollable? Suffering is usually the only thing on the menu of experience, at that...
Jul 1, 20241 min read


Patience as an aspect of The Way
Nin (忍)... Patience... can invite and encourage our vision to widen... to relax... to open rather than contract... physically, mentally,...
Jun 27, 20242 min read
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